I realize that I have my crazy mom moments, and today is just one of those days. Today I miss my baby. Actually I miss him everyday, but today is a special day. Barrett is staying with a new babysitter (Patricia) today. I am a nervous wreck. I shouldn't be, and I know that, but I am and here is why.
Patricia is wonderful, and I have no reservations about her taking care of Barrett. Patricia has a cute little girl who is 2, and she also keeps other babies from time to time. Today it is just Barrett, which is good... I am so worried that he is being a little terror to her today. Like I said today is the first day she is with him, and as far as first times with new people go he does not have a good track record. The last time he stayed with someone new (Hilweh) she called me and said he was not eating (a true first for him, he is a great eater), and that he would not stop crying. Now Hilweh has been babysitting babies in her home for longer than I have been alive, and she was having issues. She did get him to calm down, but still, this was not a mother's proudest moments by any stretch. To add some fuel to this fire Barrett is teething (that means that at the present time, Barrett is only half baby, and the other half monster).
So far we are halfway through the day and I have not received any phone calls about a horrible baby who is impossible to console, so far so good. I am hoping that when I go pick him up the report that I get involves a happy baby, who ate all his food, took two naps, and played well with Hillary. What do you think the chances of that are?
Just in case you now have this mental picture of Barrett screaming and crying, I will leave you with this parting shot. This is what I picture all day when I am away from Barrett.... and this is what I would like to end this post with... a sweet innocent baby picture of the cutest baby in the world.