Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Reflections on Being Thankful

One year ago today, I was frantically cleaning my house getting ready to have my entire family over for Thanksgiving.  I had been planning this day for weeks, everything down to the centerpieces and strategically placed scented candles to the exact way the table needed to be set.  You see, it was on Thanksgiving last year that me and Gavin announced that we were having a baby.  I was so excited about sharing this secret I could hardly stand it.  This was the perfect time and place, and I couldn't be more ... well.... thankful.  The moment was perfect.  The reactions from my family were even better.  It was one of the happiest memories in my life, and now this holiday has a whole new meaning in my life.

I know that it is sort of cheesy to blog about being thankful on Thanksgiving, but I feel like I would be doing myself a disservice if I didn't at least briefly touch on this topic.  I mean isn't that the greater purpose of this holiday to begin with.  I am thankful for everything I have in my life, I just want to take a minute to point out a couple of things that I am especially thankful for this year.

Barrett is my biggest reason to be thankful this year.  Everyone says children change your life, but there is no way to put into words a way to describe the feeling.  I have also realized that having a happy healthy baby, with no scary situations to get through is a true blessing, and something that I will forever be thankful for.  This baby has changed my whole view of the world, and has brought out sides of myself I didn't even know I had.  I look forward to every moment I get to spend with him, and I try to cherish every single moment.

I am also thankful for my mother.  She is living with me, Gavin, and Barrett for now.  I know the situation is not permanent, but I am grateful that I have this time with her, and I wish she could stay forever.  She is an amazing woman, and I still have so much to learn from her.  She not only takes care of my sweet baby during the day when I am at work, but she also helps my husband at his store.  I get to let Barrett sleep as much as he wants to in the morning, and don't have to rush to feed him, and  change him, and get him to daycare.  I also don't have to drive to a daycare on my way home.  I come home from work and I have her help as I race to get Barrett fed and bathed and ready for bed.  Having her here with me allows me to make the most of the moments that I do get with Barrett everyday.  She is also there to dispense any and all advice that I could ever need, and with Barrett being my first attempt at parenthood, I am constantly faced with new situations, and questions to go with them.  There is nothing better than having her here by my side as I take this new path in life, and for that I am truly thankful.

Also, I am thankful for my family (I am taking the liberty of extending the definition of this word to include the Bond family).  My husband ventured into the world of retail entrepreneurship at a time in my life where I don't have the ability to be involved as I would like to be.  I have been busy being pregnant, and then totally consumed with my sweet baby.  A wine store/ bar is not exactly an appropriate place for a baby, and certainly the time to enjoy drinking out with friends has been put on hold for the foreseeable future.  But as I am home taking care of the baby, my whole family has stepped up in my absence.  From the grand opening where my sister's husband and in laws were helping things go smoothly, to my father helping with the food for all the weekly wine tastings.  They have all been there for us with anything we need.  Rachel was working a full time job, and then still coming straight to the store on Friday evenings to help, and Natalie even catered the grand opening.  I am so thankful that they have been there for us, the help and support that they have provided has definitely help to make the store successful. 

Of course I am thankful for my friends, my husband, my house, my job, my pets, and all the other wonderful blessings that I have in my life too!  I am truly blessed with a wonderful life, and for that I am thankful!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

This is a place of business

As I mentioned previously Barrett comes with me to work about once a week.  It is wonderful to have him there, and it definitely makes the day seem to pass much faster than when he is not there.  Unfortunately it takes a TON of stuff to keep him happy in a small 12 x 12 room for 9 hours.  Let me just give you the tour....

As you walk into my office this will be the first thing that you see.  It is two chairs pushed together to make a temporary crib (this is because there was too much other baby stuff with me to fit my stroller into my small 2 door car).  Barrett actually sleeps pretty well in there... see for yourself.....

 Next as you look right past my desk you will see the excersaucer.  Barrett will play in this once he is up from his nap.  This is also where I put down his blanket so that he can do his tummy time during the day.

Next up...My desk.  As you can see Barrett gets to hang out right next to me literally.  This is my favorite spot for him because it is where he is the happiest the longest.  Sometimes he will nap in this too.  Notice that the toys are scattered all around this area as well. 

One of the most important places in my office is the changing station.  I have cleared off the top of one of my filing cabinets and this is where I change all his diapers.  Barrett is learning that when he wiggles around and kicks his legs it makes a really loud banging sound, and he likes this game. 

While I am at work I have to have a place to store the car seat so it is out of the way.  I have found that this little corner is the perfect size.

There are a couple of things that are not pictured.  These things are, my diaper bag, and his bumbo seat.  Both of these are stored underneath my desk until they are needed.  If the bumbo seat is out it takes the place of the bouncy seat, which is then moved into the "crib" to keep it out of the way.  I must also let you know that for the most part, customers/ clients do not come into our office very often, so it is not something that most people see.  So, needless to say that my office has been completely transformed.  It is something that I am sure that my boss (also my dad) is probably a little um... well what is the word... probably annoyed by.  It is a good thing that Barrett is so stinking cute, and all he has to do is smile that cute grandson smile, and my boss forgets that my office has been turned into a nursery.  I hope that you have enjoyed the tour.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Barret Goes to Work with Daddy

Today was the first day that Barrett went to work with Gavin.  Barrett comes with me around once a week.  I love those days.  It is so much fun to get to spend the whole day with him.  On the other hand it is so hard to get anything done.  So in the hopes that I might get something accomplished today, I asked Gavin to take him until lunchtime, and I would come pick him up around lunchtime.  So, around 12:00 I show up to eat lunch with my sweet husband and baby.  Gavin says that he is getting pretty fussy, so I am picturing lunch not going so well.  In fact it is noon, and Gavin has informed me that he did not put Barrett down to nap all day!  BUT he did have a wonderful unproductive morning at work playing with his little helper! (At this point I am picturing not only a rough lunch, but also, a very unproductive afternoon for me!)  We get Barrett settled into his bumbo seat with a toy and attempt to start eating.  At this point the plumber comes in and Gavin has to get up to handle some business.  As the three of us were talking, I turned to check on Barrett and this is what I saw:

Barrett fell asleep sitting up playing with his toy!  I think this might have been one of Barrett's cutest moments ever!  I know it wasn't nice to laugh, but still... it was hilarious.  You see, Barrett doesn't like to sleep during the day at all on a good day, but today that baby was so tired he fell asleep sitting up!  Just for the record, Barrett took a small nap, and then stayed up for the rest of the afternoon.  Needless to say it was a good thing I had the morning to be productive at work.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Barrett's first night in the crib

One of the first questions that everyone seems to ask someone with a new baby is "Are you getting any sleep?"  They say it with a look of honest sympathy, because most people answer that question with "None!"  I have learned to be very modest about my reply to that question.  See the thing is Barrett has been sleeping through the night since he was six weeks.  When I say sleeping through the night, I don't mean 5-6 hours at a time... we're talking 10-11, and sometimes even 12 hours at time.  I know I am lucky, and blessed, and I should be thankful.  Barrett's schedule is that he wants to be in bed for the night BY 8:00 pm!  Now that it is getting darker earlier, he is trying to go to sleep earlier, like between 6:30 and 7pm.  I know better than to tell most other new parents this as well.  Most of them say that even though there child is more than twice Barrett's age they are still waking up in the middle of the night, and they look at me like I am bragging or being boastful.  I have actually had one sleep deprived parent get frustrated at me during our discussion, and not want to talk anymore.  After a couple of conversations I have learned to just say "he is a good sleeper, and I am lucky" and leave it at that. 

This is where my Jessica logic comes into play.  I have a very big case of mommy guilt.  You know, the "I should be spending more time with the baby, I should never let him cry"... and other utterly senseless thoughts that creep into my mind.  When this sleeping through the night thing first started, it actually made me sad.  You see, I am a night owl.  Being up at night is ok with me, and I miss spending that wonderful cuddle time with my sweet angel.  Now I have even bigger feelings of regret because he is going to sleep so early.  It seems like I barely have time to put my stuff down once I get home from work.  It is like I have to speed through feeding and bathing him or else he is falling asleep in his bathtub.  It makes me sad.  I wish he wanted to stay up later and play, but sadly he doesn't. 

So this leads me to the point... Barrett slept in his crib in his own room for the first time last night.  Even though he has been sleeping through the night for months, he has still been sleeping in our room, close enough for me to not even have to get out of bed to pick him up in the morning.  Key word here is morning, there was no need for him to be an arm's length away from me if he wasn't waking up in the middle of the night.  It had been becoming more obvious that it was time to move him into his own room, but I couldn't accept that I couldn't keep him by me anymore.  So with a little (ok.. a lot) of prodding from my mom and husband, I did it.  I put him down in his own crib, all the way across the house from my room.  And how did he do.... perfect... he slept until his normal time in the morning without one protestful cry, or for that matter, without even a whimper.  How did I do... well I made up for his lack of tears with my own, but I did make it through the night.  Somehow this little baby has brought out a very maladjusted mushball side of myself that I never knew existed.  At least when I got done crying to my husband I was able to laugh at myself.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

James comes to visit

Gavin's brother James, and his girlfriend Katie came to stay with us this weekend.  We were so excited that they got to come and meet Barrett for the first time.  It was late Friday night when they got in because they hung out with Gavin at the wine tasting.  After a very late night, watching football and hanging out at the house on Saturday sounded like a good idea to everyone.  James and Katie only got to stay until Sunday morning, but we hope they can come back soon.  Here are some pictures of our lazy day at the house.